rich people brag about the money they have spent, poor people brag about the money they have saved - the original latin kings of comedy

Last year, my brother said I am the black sheep in our family. I’m the middle child and everybody hates me here, I mean except for my dad. My dad loves me. Maybe that’s why my mom hates me, maybe she’s jealous. Maybe that’s why she’s always giving me a hard time. Maybe that’s why dad’s always helping me out. It’s like a cycle I guess. My dad is good to me > My mom treats me like nothing > My dad forever loves me and is good to me…. Yes? Okay. My mom loves my brother and my little sister forever. If course everybody loves the eldest and the youngest right? The other one’s more of the responsibility type of person and the other one is more of the cutesy fucking adorable brat type of person. And now the middle child, me. The fucking fucked up alcoholic reckless kid. Nice. 75% of them sees me as the black sheep. Fuck this. I just wanna be treated like how they treat one another, as in equally. No favoritism. No fucking favoritism. I just wanna punch someone whenever I see/hear my mom not having a hard time shouting at me every time and just talk to my other siblings like a great mom and never used a high toned voice at them. Like what the fuck?

Maybe I guess I grew up hating my mother maybe that’s why I never greeted her on her birthday may 07 and on mother’s day online on my blog twitter & even on facebook. I don’t wanna be like those kids who are plastic and make a fucking long post for their mother. Idk. Sometimes I hate her, sometimes I love her. But maybe most of the time, I just hate her. I hate her as much as she hates me.

I just can’t fucking stand on our retreat back in high school, mom and dad gave me as separate letter. My dad talks about how wonderful I am, how special and great I am, I am a great daughter whatever bla bla. And my mother’s letter to me was like all the negative fucking things I’ve done, my negative traits all those shit. like what the fuck? You’re supposed to say “I love you” or something like those sweet messages typical mothers write to their children. Come on. After reading that letter, I cried so hard. And everybody’s crying to. Others didn’t receive any letters, others have been touched by their parents’ letters and me, the reason why I cried because I was fucking sad and disappointed at my mom. Then I realized after that she really hates me.

Maybe one day, hopefully, I’ll regret I wrote this shit. Mom, please prove me wrong.

That was really special to me, and you’re just like “Sorry.”

It’s like you’re saying “I’m sorry I stole your boyfriend while you weren’t looking.”

And you didn’t even mean it.

You live like a pig, because you’re a pig. And I bet no one will ever marry you. Fuck you

gwds:

Medj kagigising ko nga lang pala :-)

Anyway eto nangyari. Andun si ~*past*~ sa dream ko, tapos non boom! nag-appear ~*best friend*~ ko, tapos non boom! gusto ni ~*past*~ si ~*best friend*~!!!!

Tapos di ko na matandaan ano feeling ko nun kung galit ba ako or something. Basta ang alam ko di ko masyadong matanggap haha noice.

Siguro kaya ko talaga napanaginipan yun, kasi ganon naman talaga lagi nangyayari saakin. Ako lagi naiiwan kasi nagustuhan yung kaibigan ko. Kung hindi iiwan, gagamitin as bridge hehehe. Noice noice

I’ll never forget how you asked me not to leave you when I did, and how you cried, and begged for me to stay, when I left. Sometimes, I must confess, I think about us, still, and what could have been had I not made the decision to end things between us. Although, you must know, I only wanted you to fight hard for me, like really do something about it, but you didn’t and when I ran after you, and told you I loved you still, it broke my heart that you did not want me back anymore. I’ll never forget our love, and I think that’s the reason why I have not been in a relationship ever since, it’s been 3 years, and no one has been able to come close to what I had with you. 

(via myspotlessmind)

gwds:

Yung problema kasi saakin, kung nakita ko na na-aappreciate na ng mga tao mga gawa ko at nagbibigay sila ng mga compliments, doon ako ginaganahan eh at lalo ko gagalingan. At pag nakikita kong wala na nangyayari, mas lalo ko nalang hinahayaan. Mali eh. Imbes na lalo ako humabol at mag-effort kabaliktaran ginagawa ko which is so sad and stupid. At least ngayon alam ko na dapat kong gawin, hindi ko na dapat lagi antayin na i-appreciate nila o kung ano man, ang mahalga ay magawa ko at gagalingan ko. Para masatisfy ako kahit ano mangyari diba. Ayoko na dumepende sa iniisip ng ibang tao. Basta galingan nalang alam ko it’ll be worth it naman.